Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Alone in a crowd

As I train my often unwilling legs to run a marathon, my runs typically take place in Central Park. The good people at New York Road Runners have posted the exact distances of every possible variation on the loops circling the park. As the runs get longer, the loops become more numerous and the hours spent multiply. The weather, for the most part, keeps getting better and on a Saturday or Sunday afternoon, the park is often packed with people looking for an oasis from concrete and pollution. Many of these oasis-seekers are runners, too. You'd think we'd form some little community of people who could feel one another's pain. In a two hour period, I often see the same runners more than once. Nobody would ever accuse me of being outgoing, but I'm generally friendly. I've been known to say hi to passersby, or give a nod if I recognize a face.

Want to know what I get in return? Nothing. Nada. Zilch. People rarely if ever reciprocate my friendly gestures. In fact, one woman recently tried to engage me in a game of chicken, refusing to get out of my way and moving to put herself in my way until we nearly collided. Then, she turned toward me, scrunched up her face like the girl from The Exorcist, and growled at me. Believe me, I'm not capable of making stuff like this up. The bottom line is that despite the increasing number of park runners this spring, my runs are still mostly solitary experiences. I usually like it that way, but every once in a while, running with the oblivious masses can make a girl feel very lonely. It's one of life's great mysteries.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Long time, no blog.

So, it's been a little while since I have added anything to the blog. Where have I been? What have I been doing? Running until I can't run anymore. Why am I back? Obviously - because I can't run anymore. After following a training plan that included one progressively longer run per week, my body finally screamed for mercy. It started as a nagging pain in my right heel. I should have listened then, taken a break and bought some new sneakers. I'm stubborn and, evidently, way over-confident.

I continued training, icing intermittently afterward, until last night when I could only run two miles before tears were involuntarily streaming down my face. The pain was just more than I could bear. I have a relatively high threshold for physical pain, so this was definitely bad. I'd love to say that I'm cured, feeling good and heading back out for a run. Instead, I'm sputtering with frustration, feeling like a useless lump, and pitying myself like there's no tomorrow.

In order to avoid depressing others (probably too late), I'm off to, well, not run. Sigh.